PSA this is going to be a whiney post. Not because everything in my life is going dastardly wrong but because I’m feeling whiney right now and that’s okay.
I want to go back
I really do
Before I had any problems
or any stress
When my biggest worry was what I was going to wear for my 13th birthday party
When I had no income. When I had no bills.
When the only job I had was my math home work and dance class 7 days a week
When any money I had could be used for whatever I wanted
When it didn’t matter
When I didn’t have to worry about making friends because anyone could be a friend and we would just play and play and play
Before I forgot how to play
Before I had to practice self love because I hadn’t yet lost it
Before I decided I had to be someone
Before I was in a rush.
When my mom made me breakfast every morning and I didn’t know how wonderful it is to have someone make you breakfast every morning
When we would jam in the car
Whatever we needed
When I had multiple hand fulls of people I could call at any moment who would drop everything for me
When I could lose it and someone else would pick up the pieces
When I didn’t have to have it together
Before we were so busy
Before we all grew up
I wish we didn’t grow up.